There's an ache, so much of an ache, that Six feels that she might break. What she wants is a reason to distract herself, something else to focus on - and can Marcoulf not give her that? Give her something to turn her mind to, something to force her to stop thinking of the ashes and the items, personal effects that will never see their owners again -
- she breathes out. Slowly, carefully, she stands, stepping forward to lumber to the front of her horse, hand lifting to stroke against his face, gentle and soothing. She thinks he can read her; he pushes his nose against her fingers and she blinks back her tears, desperate and lost.
"Kind? No. It was all that we could do." A swallow. "It will never be enough."
The whisk of the brush pauses, a brief hiccup in that repeating rhythm. Enough? No, probably not.
It's like watching this scene from the wings of a cheap play: People die all the time. It's what happens, he can see the man thinking it hard enough to be a shield at the same time he knows that the girl - she seems very much like a girl in most ways except her height and plate armor and the weight of her arm when it's swinging a sword - is a sensitive creature. That it wouldn't do to say it.
The only thing he can't quite figure out is what the point is. Why do you keep doing this? he could ask either one of them.
Death is not something so easy for Six to accept. She has seen it in warfare, of course; she was there, cutting down men, hurting them, harming them, all in the hopes of bringing them back towards the light, but it never works how she hopes it might. It is never so easy, especially with Sarenrae so distant from her, so far beyond her reach. It is not that easy, and it hurts, aches, an agonising feeling.
Leaning forward, her forehead touches her horses and she relaxes, closing her eyes.
"Eaten?" Hesitating, she leans back to think. "I am not so sure. I cannot remember when I last ate."
Then she turns, looking over at him.
"I will make sure Sir is settled and fed and then I will find my own."
Scrape, scrape, scrape and the sweat mark of the saddle and girth is slowly worked out of the gelding's coat. Here, the motion of Marcoulf's arm doesn't pause, but the rest of him seems to.
For a beat. For two.
"I know a place," he says, half halting like he isn't certain what he's offering. "Unless you'd rather just make your way to the Gallows."
At least Sir is here to calm her, and Marcoulf is being kind. She did not expect that and it rests on her shoulders, calming and easing the tension inside of her. She feels such guilt about what she had been unable to do, her failures, and yet...
And yet. She knows it is not entirely her fault, but... She wishes she could repair it all the same. She wishes... So much.
"No. I would be glad to go anywhere." And then, again, "thank you."
"Think nothing of it," he says without shifting his attention away from the task under his hands. Maybe it's a statement made automatic out of habit. Or maybe his thoughtfulness only extends so far - yes, to offering his company; no to accepting her thanks. Or maybe he's just an ass. Or maybe he's aware of some prickling, selfish intent in all of this. He shouldn't invite her along anywhere. She does poorly with the stilted quality of his presence and it would be neater, cleaner, kinder to simply not request that she suffer through it at all.
But.
(Magni wouldn't have died easily, he thinks. But maybe she did. It's a comfort to think it was done with quickly. Maybe that's why the rest of them couldn't get all the way away. If she was struck down right at the beginning, they wouldn't have the benefit of her strength behind them and then--)
Anyway. He focuses on brushing out Sir's coat. It takes some time, some effort, and it's most comfortable to do it in silence and so he offers little more in the way of conversation until the horse is settled.
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- she breathes out. Slowly, carefully, she stands, stepping forward to lumber to the front of her horse, hand lifting to stroke against his face, gentle and soothing. She thinks he can read her; he pushes his nose against her fingers and she blinks back her tears, desperate and lost.
"Kind? No. It was all that we could do." A swallow. "It will never be enough."
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It's like watching this scene from the wings of a cheap play: People die all the time. It's what happens, he can see the man thinking it hard enough to be a shield at the same time he knows that the girl - she seems very much like a girl in most ways except her height and plate armor and the weight of her arm when it's swinging a sword - is a sensitive creature. That it wouldn't do to say it.
The only thing he can't quite figure out is what the point is. Why do you keep doing this? he could ask either one of them.
"Have you eaten today?" A hard left turn.
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Leaning forward, her forehead touches her horses and she relaxes, closing her eyes.
"Eaten?" Hesitating, she leans back to think. "I am not so sure. I cannot remember when I last ate."
Then she turns, looking over at him.
"I will make sure Sir is settled and fed and then I will find my own."
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For a beat. For two.
"I know a place," he says, half halting like he isn't certain what he's offering. "Unless you'd rather just make your way to the Gallows."
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And yet. She knows it is not entirely her fault, but... She wishes she could repair it all the same. She wishes... So much.
"No. I would be glad to go anywhere." And then, again, "thank you."
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But.
(Magni wouldn't have died easily, he thinks. But maybe she did. It's a comfort to think it was done with quickly. Maybe that's why the rest of them couldn't get all the way away. If she was struck down right at the beginning, they wouldn't have the benefit of her strength behind them and then--)
Anyway. He focuses on brushing out Sir's coat. It takes some time, some effort, and it's most comfortable to do it in silence and so he offers little more in the way of conversation until the horse is settled.